Fuck da system

*yawn*

I am so damn tired.

I'm sat at work again and I just have no motivation. Work is not as bad as this blog makes out, you're never going to see me write a blog saying I'm enjoying work. Going back to the climate change issue from the below blog, part of me wants to try and get a job working on that. The motivation I think I need is to know I'm making a difference. In my current job, we're basically bending over backwards for brokers and there's nothing we can do about it. We need them, they don't need us.

Unfortunately, even though I should feel good at the "new me" re: the climate, it just makes me think things such as "How can I care about that when I eat animals and buy corporate goods that are made by children and underpaid farmers?". Bull fighting, fur-wearing, animal-fights...all of it sickens me, yet I still eat meat because I can't resist the taste and craving. Part of me wants to rebel against everything - sell all my material goods - fuck the internet, fuck TV, fuck the cans of coke, fuck my GAP jacket. But no, it's just not realistic. The most difficult thing in the world is to not be a hypocrite. Rage against the Machine signing to a major record label is a prime example. If you stand up for something you feel is right, people around you will always try and catch you out. This world is too full of corporate goods for it to be avoided - it's similar to Orwell's 1984 ... there was nothing left that he could do, he gave in and loved Big Brother (not the fucking programme).